Today was a little bit demoralizing when I got a nice email from a well known health food store chain, telling me that I wasn’t qualified to work in their store as a part time bakery assistant and barista.
See. No. That’s where you’re wrong, well known health food store. I’ve been self employed for 8 years. Managing client needs and expectations, producing inventory on a timetable, with meticulous attention to detail and customer satisfaction. Before that I was an ACTUAL BARISTA and also worked in a specialty food store. I’m basically PERFECT for your store, but let’s get real, I think it’s more that you won’t hire me because I’m 47 and I’ve been out of the “working for other people” sphere for 8 years. So a little ageism there and maybe some worry about entrepreneurs as employees?
So demoralizing and frustrating. Because I could basically do that job standing up and asleep (not that I’d sleep, I’d be so wide awake) and they would LOVE me, but I can’t get in the door for an interview. Online job applications are horrible.
I would say “This is why you need to go to college, kids.” except so many of my friends who did go to college are also under employed, or unemployed and hustling as entrepreneurs when all they really want is a 401k and health benefits.
On the up side, after some Facebook whining, I was reminded that I am surrounded by an amazing and supportive tribe of women in the doula and art worlds, and I felt really lifted up and not so scared and alone. Community is great. We’ll all get through this together. I’m grateful for tribe today. When my fire was low, they helped relight my match.
I’ve been at the bench all day today, in between bouts of resume updating, LinkedIn figuring-out-ing, and job searching. Writer’s strike is looming and our primary income is from film production. I just don’t make enough as a doula yet to cover the gap and jewelry sales haven’t picked up yet. Part time work for The Man it is. Sometimes that’s necessary too. Sometimes your side hustle has a side hustle and it looks like a real job. To that end, I’m going to keep applying for different jobs at that well known health food chain until someone lets me in the door for an interview.