A year or two ago, I took a couple of e-courses on running a jewelry business and since one of the perks is lifetime access, I’m re-doing the financial/business course this month.
I am hoping I can stay on board long enough to get the information that will be helpful to me, this time around. Last time I really sabotaged myself and there was a lot of ego in the way. I didn’t want to hear a lot of what they had to say about what I was doing wrong – or if not wrong, at least inefficiently. So really, the question is not, “Can this course help me.” but rather it is, “Can I get out of my own way long enough to let it help me?”
I guess we’ll see.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about blocks and fear and why it is scary to succeed. How we sabotage ourselves and get in our own way. For example, I had a tremendously successful Celtic Faire this March and came to the realization that we were going to do really well at Ren Faires and that type of event. You wanna talk Dream Clients? Those are my people. I signed up for ALL THE FAIRES. Then we had booth issues, canvas issues, a bum knee… all this crappy life stuff that came up to get in the way of me being able to actually get to the Faires.
What is that about, anyway? Did I manifest that? Create that? Did I just go along with the suggestion that it was impossible, because I am secretly afraid of actually getting the awesome life I say I want?
Is that part of what happened at Crafted?
What is so scary about making it, anyway?
If the last few years have shown me anything, they’ve shown me that if I really want something, then I’ve got to work hard and actually sacrifice for it. Maybe that’s the missing piece right there. Sacrifice. I’ve never really wanted to give something up to have something else. All about the power of “and” over here. But I am coming to think you can’t get there from here without it. Without being tired and giving stuff up and working hard and paying dues. Don’t get me wrong. I work hard. I do. But… maybe I’m not quite working hard the right way. Maybe I’m spinning my wheels in the sand and making a hole, rather than gaining traction in my field.
There will always be hurdles and blocks. There will always be something in the way. There will always be a reason to dismiss something helpful or “yeah but” all of the wisdom that comes my way because I don’t like how it is worded or presented. There will always be some external very good reason why it isn’t my fault.
The big question is, what am I going to do with all that?
I’ll let you know how it goes.
What are your super-limiting core beliefs? Have you ever thought about that? What do you do to challenge them?