I should be heading out to Frazier Mountain Renaissance Faire right about now, heading out with my booth and my jewelry. Instead, I’m flat on my butt in bed for a few days on massive doses of antibiotics, while a raging kidney infection calms down and gets better.
I just spent about a week in the Central Valley, up at my mom’s, helping her out after she had surgery, after several weeks of shows and long days of production. I was so happy to get home to my little cottage in the foothills, ready to pick up the reins of Honey&Ollie and get into the studio, do some work… and the symptoms of minor illness that I’d been ignoring for the week of caring for my mom (and a few days before because I was busy with shows) got much worse.
And now I’m sick. Spent most of yesterday in Urgent Care, strapped to an ekg, getting pumped up with i.v. antibiotics, sick. Fortunately not hospital sick, though if I’d waited much longer that probably would have been the case. I’m glad I didn’t wait much longer. Because of the economy and the exMrH&O’s continued laid off status, we’re uninsured. ‘Nuff said. Thanks, government (and by “government” I mean BOTH PARTIES) your continued childish resistance to working together in any kind of a partisan fashion has really just improved my life so much. But, I digress…
Trying to find the lesson in all this.
Okay, the first lesson is probably something like, “Don’t ignore shit because it gets expensive.” which is really a variation of something we reviewed a few weeks ago, with taxes. When it has to do with bodies, it’s not only expensive, but painful and time-consuming.
The other lesson might be something like, “Slow down. Rest. Take care of yourself. Seek a better balance.” I get that the body does know best, but I have to admit that it’s hard to shut off the part of me that wants to jump up and get to work. There’s so much work… and I love my work.
But… most of that work? Can wait. Earrings can wait to go up in the shop. Production schedules can be bumped back. Beyond taking care of a few commitments to clients, there’s nothing that can’t be put off.
I haven’t really played in ever so long. Weeks. Months? Haven’t picked up a paintbrush, haven’t done something without the idea of “can I make this support me?” and I am here to tell you, that’s a pretty fast way to wring all the joy out of life and out of your work.
I’m supposed to be going on vacation next Wednesday but I think I’m bumping that up by a few days. I’m on vacation, y’all. To rest. To play. Get better. Read some blogs and seek inspiration. Spend time with my family and those kitties. See my parents. Hug some redwoods. Visit Elder Child and explore some stretches of coastline. Take some pictures. Play in my art journal. Finish these antibiotics. Have fun with my man, his son, my daughter, spend time with family.
Oh yes. I think the body is being very clear. Vacation is starting early.
Honey&Ollie will be back in mid-July. Be well. ❤