How is it Monday, already? I don’t see how that is possible, except that it is.
I have been fighting the reality all morning but the truth is, I’m not feeling so great today. I have very limited spoons, I think, and so I am having to let go of a lot of expectations about all the work that I’d hoped to accomplish.
It’s difficult to go face the grotty kitchen with the detritus of a weekend’s worth of activities piled up. Classes… workshops… D&D game here with the boys… being out and about and not home to tidy… a week of assimilating some intense personal work that I’ve been doing in my Mondo Beyondo and Unravelling workshops. I have to decide if I’m going to spend a spoon on the dishes or not. The mess is so bad it may be two or three spoons. I have to confess that I get really frustrated, feeling like the only person in the house who does anything. Of course, there are only two of us, and one of us is a teenager, so I suppose that my feelings are probably pretty normal. Still. Today I am bashing my head against that rather a lot.
All the things tugging at my attention and demanding my energy have been feeling very overwhelming today, and then it just occurred to me that I could shut that stuff off. Close Facebook. Turn off email notifications from Mondo Beyondo. Not start Unravelling (week 4, omg!) until tomorrow. The dishes can sit a little longer. I’m shutting off the stuff that threatens to overwhelm, and I’m being here now, exactly where I am.
Which is tired.
And that is okay.